My views on religion

Well, i’m a catholic christian. I actually start ccd again this sunday…yay… People always ask me if I actually believe in what i’m taught and I actually think about if I do sometimes. I believe in heaven. I think that people have to go somewhere after they die, but I don’t exactly believe in hell. I think people get punished enough during life for being bad; they don’t need it after their life as well. As for the whole thing about God creating the world in seven days I don’t really believe in that either, but hey at least religion gives people hope and the strength to believe.

A time I thought about ending my own life

Sometimes I get extremely sad, but I would never be able to end my own life. I know it would hurt others more than it actually hurts me. Even when i’m very sad just thinking about everything, the thought of ending my life doesn’t cross through. “It’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem.”

My thoughts on drugs and alcohol

Well, I don’t do drugs or alcohol, but I don’t really care when people do them unless they go overboard.

Where I’d like to be in ten years

I want to have graduated college and be working as a psychologist. I want to be genuinely happy with me life. I want to be on my way to marriage and having a family. That’s where I wish to be in ten years.

My current relationship status

This would be taken:) We’ve been going out for a little over two months now and I think things are going really good right now. We don’t exactly get to hang out a lot but we try our best. I’m so happy we’re going out and hope we continue going out for a long time:)

day 1 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is. 
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years. 
day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol. 
day 4 - your views on religion. 
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life. 
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself. 
day 7 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality. 
day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life. 
day 9 - how you hope your future will be like. 
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss. 
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up. 
day 12 - bullet your whole day. 
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit. 
day 14 - your earliest memory. 
day 15 - your favorite tumblrs. 
day 16 - your views on mainstream music. 
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year. 
day 18 - your beliefs. 
day 19 - disrespecting your parents. 
day 20 - how important you think education is. 
day 21 - one of your favorite shows. 
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years? 
day 23 - give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive. 
day 24 - your favorite movie and what it’s about. 
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why. 
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you. 
day 27 - a problem that you have had. 
day 28 - something that you miss. 
day 29 - goals for the next 30 days. 
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month.

Ah i’m just sitting here thinking how everything is so different. I miss the times when I was a little kid and pinky promises meant the world, I was satisfied with just sitting with my parents for a whole day, and it was amazing when I got to hang out with friends until 5 on a school night. I hate how when you grow up everything becomes harder, everyone is so much more judgemental, and you start to be less oblivious to what’s going on in the world. I hate how people call others a slut for being friends with a guy, fat for not being a zero, ugly for having a few blemishes, a pothead for hanging out with the wrong crowd, and a bitch for standing up for yourself. It gets so much harder how everytime a tragic event happens, it seems so much worse than it would have been when you were younger. Every death, is like a blow to the heart. Every fight with a best friend, is like a sister being ripped from you. Every problem with a guy seems like the end of a world. I miss when all these things just passed through our head like it would go away in a few minutes. School isn’t a place where you can be yourself and do your work anymore. It’s just a place for you to be judged by others. I miss the times: when everyone could get along, and not have a care in the world. When girls and boys could play without having to get undressed. When you could spend hours on end just playing on the playground, without getting bored. When spending a day with your parents was everything you could have asked for. When people didn’t even know what drugs were. When race was not even a thought. When people who were different, were just more interesting to be around. When people passed on, and you thought they were just going on a vacation for a while. When a fight with a friend was the biggest thing that you had to worry about. I miss being a little kid, being so carefree all the time. But I miss the most, when everyone could get along.

I don’t even know why but I am so nervous for school tomorrow, like I don’t think i’ve ever been this nervous which is wierd because i’m not new to this school. And I can’t even sleep tonight, and i’m not tired at all. Well, this is gonna be one long day. Goodnight.

I’m going to meet the girls soon and we’re gonna go to the high school soon to walk around and see where our classes are. I’m so happy because I haven’t seen brie in soso long! Oh my birthday was a few days ago.. it sucked really bad, but I don’t like birthdays anyways. Hmm, i’m actually really excited for school, but so nervous at the same time. I’m happy to see everyone again, but I don’t know many people in my classes. Sometimes I get way too shy so then it’s harder for me to talk to people I don’t exactly know. Oh well, i’ll have to get over it. On a happier note, today is mine and alex’s one month:) hehe it went by so fast but I do hope it lasts. Well, that’s all I have to say for now!